growth.

Over the past year I have become this new person.  I am continually growing as a person but also in my relationship with Christ! It has been one big roller coaster and I am continually on the ride.  I did not realize how much I had grown in the past year until someone told me.

I got the chance to volunteer for a month at Lost Canyon's Young Life Camp.  It was just a great experience! I have met and built great relationships with some awesome people.  While I was there I asked myself what am I here for? I still don't even know how to answer this question.  But all I can think about is how I have grown in the past year and maybe God just wants me to see how much I have grown in my walk with Him.

I used to be this shy girl who didn't want to show the world who she really was.  Holding myself back from things that made me happy.  I was this person stuck in this stereotypical world, where I was too afraid to show who I really was.  To sum it all up I was insecure and afraid that the world would reject me.  Well, more afraid of rejection was that haunting insecurity. Don't get me wrong even now that I have grown more into myself and in Christ does not mean that I am not afraid of rejection.  It just means that I have the love of Christ to get me through the rejection to see something more beautiful from it.

I am tired of living in the fear of rejection.  We don't need rejection in our lives.  We need Jesus to help us through the devastating rejection. Because someone once told me that in rejection you can find beauty.  Which now come to realize it, that the saying I once was told is so true. God makes us whole, he fills us up, and he loves us so much that we don't dwell in the rejection.

"As you come to him, the living Stone rejected by humans but chosen by God and precious to him."
1 Peter 2:4

I am 21 years old and I'm still learning things from God and things about myself.  Growth gives us power to overcome the enemy and stay constant with God.  I never used to pray out loud, I never used to tell people that I can sing, I never told people I could play the guitar, and I never let people see the real me.  I found confidence in him to become the woman I am today.  God has a plan for each and everyone of us.  I'm not exactly sure what it is He wants to do with me yet, but I know He is not finished with me yet.