where do I go from here?

Well where to begin.  It has been two years since my last blog post. Where to begin...

I am now a graduate from Northern Arizona University with a Bachelor's degree in Elementary Education.  I am currently trying to pass my certification tests to be able to teach in the state of Arizona. I have this thing called test anxiety. Basically, I am not a test taker.

So what are going to do now? or Do you have a job?  The question that makes me CRINGE!!  I hate being asked about the future or my future.  I am 23 years old and I am being judged for not having a job or having my certification tests done. When people ask me about it I can see how they are judging me and thinking well she is just so lazy and stupid.  Now people may not think that but to someone who doesn't feel the best about there life at the moment the look you are giving me makes me want to punch you in the face.  Sorry if this offends anyone but your face really does say it all.   (Im sorry I went on a RANT!) To be honest I have no idea what the future holds.  Only the Lord knows what is going to happen. Right now I am working a part-time job and I hope to start substitute teaching within the next couple of weeks.

I am at this stage in my life where I am learning how to be a "REAL" grown up.  I thought I would graduate college get offered and have my certification test taken and passed.  But unfortunately that is not how my story turns out.

I have a lot of dreams. My dream would be to pass these certification tests and get offered a job at a good school with awesome kids.  I have a lot of dreams.  Dreams to be an awesome teacher, be a part of a church that makes me feel home, love the Lord and grow even deeper with Him, to find someone, etc. There are so many dreams I could go on and on about them.  And sometimes our dreams are just dreams and will not become reality.  I hope that some of my list of dreams will come true.

For now I am just being patient until the Lord tells me what it is he wants me to do!

"As soon as Babylon's seventy years are up and not a day before, I'll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I am doing I have it all planned out--plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for." 
                                                         --Jeremiah 29:10-11 (The Message)